What now?

Hi Friends, Im going to jump right in to this here. Last blog i ended on a very stark thought. So i want to pick up right there.

"the question that struck me most devastatingly
while reading this book was, "what if God never existed in the first place, and
the bible was the greatest myth ever told?" Because if i can't hear, see, smell,
touch, God then maybe He isn't real?"

When my Faith in God, something i value so deeply, was threatened and my fears took hold of me Those fears escalated from Bad to worse to hopeless.
As i spent time thinking about my question I began to feel that Life would be
utterly meaningless if i found myself to be fully convinced that God is not real.
where would i go to find all the things that Christianity seemingly promised? Things like Truth, Hope, Joy, Love, Peace, satisfaction, Heaven? what else on this earth could promise and follow through with providing
these things?

With everything on earth being bound to death and decay what can a person trust in to provide these things. If anything, all that can be offered is a distraction for a time being. No matter the vainness or value nor the beastliness or beauty of your treasure it will, In my opinion, all find itself unable to live up to the great expectations that Jesus Offers in his Message.

But what about those who have dedicated their lives to Christianity and still
find themselves lacking Truth, Hope, Joy, Love, Peace, Satisfaction, Heaven?
This is my kryptonite. Why does the bible speak on things seemingly so clearly
and yet when you lean on those words you find yourself disappointed? Example: Why do some prayers get answered and others do not? Why do some people get healed of physical ailment and others suffer and or die? Is God lying? Is God even there? Or is the fault to found within man and our interpretation and understanding of the Bible?

Well to make things a bit more interesting and stir things up a bit here is a
story a friend that i respect and trust sent me about his experience with Faith and Prayer.

"I was leading an outreach in Uganda. We had been ministering there for about a week running open air type meetings preaching the gospel and praying for the sick. Anyways during one of these meetings I saw standing at the back of the
crowd a man I thought I had met the previous night. I walked over to this man
and began to talk to him. It soon became clear that this was not the same man I
met last night and it also became clear that this man was deaf and mute. So I
began praying for his healing and the restoration of his speech and hearing.
Nothing happened for about half an hour. Finally God put it on my mind to pray
against a deaf and dumb spirit. So I did! I began to click my fingers next to his ear and he responded to the sound. I got excited and began speaking out the name Jesus . Evey time he was responding to it. God opened his ears so I now placed my hands on his throat as he still couldn't talk. All of a sudden he began to mimic the words J, my fiend with me, was speaking which was the name Jesus.
God totally opened his ears and loosened his tongue and the first words he ever
spoke and heard was Jesus. His healing was later confirmed by his good friend
who told us that his once deaf friend was now watching a lot of T.V. as it was the
first time that he could hear what was happening."


There are things that cannot be explained by the laws of this world. I don't understand why Some people get healed and others don't. But the fact is that People do get miraculously healed at times. So where does that leave us?

I'll keep going next week
thanks for reading

Sean